That Old STS Taste for Negative Emotions
An Open Letter to Laura and Ark
by Vincent Bridges
“Is this what being mad is like? Because, you know, some really crazy people can really seem sane.”
Laura Knight-Jadcyzk – quoted in The Exorcist in Love, St. Pete Times, February 13th, 2000
So, the last few weeks have been “very hard on me, Ark, our friends and most particularly our children.” That is indeed too bad, for you have only yourselves to blame.
I know how hard it is to admit that you were wrong, that you made bad decisions out of fear and greed and some nebulous sense of entitlement. But how long will you keep this up?
Here are the undisputed facts:
Last February you agreed to speak at my conference. You advertised it immediately and filled the space with your supporters.
In March, I agreed to publish the original Noah Syndrome, and possibly the other works in the pipeline such as Amazing Grace. We even discussed giving you your own imprint.
In late April, we received the text of Noah Syndrome and some unusable illustrations.
In May, concerns surfaced about Fred’s involvement, copyrights, etc.
In June, the lady who wanted her picture down from your website, the lizard-man rape, began to make trouble and in handling it, I got a glimpse of how the L’ark attack mode works.
In July, it all came apart. I witnessed a very strange “fund-raising” meeting, discussed the business end of the book publishing and had a contract ready for you to look at. You weren’t interested. Instead, we had a peculiar board and mirror session in which you received “proof” that I was an evil being.
A week or so later, you started denigrating the conference on the website while attacking me indirectly on the egroups. Three weeks later, you backed out of the conference and the book deal altogether. Here’s exactly what you said about it all in August on the Cassiopaea egroup:
“And here we come to the Vincent saga. Once I realized that I was in the grip of a petty tyrant, I put the “strategy” into operation. All of you witnessed it. It involved systematic harassment of Vincent within the confines of the forum of the group. I did not engage with him in private where he would have slammed me viciously. I knew he would not do that in public. I also investigated his weakness thoroughly - his practice and teaching of rituals that are, in the outside world, connected inextricably with Black Magick. He had another weakness: his association with Dan Winter and his criticism of Stan Tenen.
“I spent a day writing the Meru articles on the Perseus page as another “insult” to his ritualistic business because it cuts deep at the heart of the whole kabbalistic foundations of magick.
“The strategy calls for being on the alert for a moment in which the weakness can be used against the tyrant. As it turned out, this article was the inducer of that moment - the attack by the Jewish crowd screaming “anti-semitism,” followed by Stan Tenen’s attack and impending connection of Satanism to Dan Winter, and by default through long association, with Vincent.”
And, in the same post, you go even further:
“So, the cancellation was announced IN PUBLIC. The “slave” (us) did what amounted to “taunting” the tyrant and “making fun” of his work and public persona. It made him look ridiculous, as Don Juan suggests is necessary.
“And, as Don Juan suggests, part of the strategy is the certainty that the tyrant will retaliate, but in a covert way.
“Vincent began planning his destruction of us. He wrote an email that was supposed to engage the emotions of everyone on the group in his favor - to show how terribly he had been wronged.
“But, I blocked it. (and here I will say that a number of others really wanted to “try to work it out” and “make peace in the family. A series of emails were exchanged begging Vincent to think about what he was doing. That only served to further enrage him. He came after me with all that fury - in his email sent to 150 plus recipients. But his rage had blinded him. He acted in ways that clearly revealed his true nature. By this time, he was unable to control himself because he had been provoked. The subsequent webpage was the final series of interactions that led to the resolution.”
And so it has continued, with subsequent escalations, to the present day. Why? Because you had a “psychic” vision and went out of your way to make it true?
Apparently so…
You raised a stink over the conference refunds, even though I said from the very beginning that everyone who wanted a refund would get one, while plotting with Stan Tenen to “do some real damage.” When I paid everyone back, you still encouraged your people to seek refunds through their credit cards. And still it continued…
Except now it switched to anyone who found that “petty tyrant” rant a little hard to swallow, anyone who wouldn’t tow the party line so to speak. In October, when it got so ridiculous that I couldn’t stand it anymore, I joined Matrioshka and told the whole story.
Of course that really made me the enemy…
And so the cyber attack campaign began. Using wounded people who need your approval to do your dirty work, you went after everyone you could find that had ever known me and tried to get a negative response from them about me. The usual letter started with a request for background information because I was being considered for a job with Perseus Foundation. Many people thought the letter was from an official of the Foundation, perhaps even a lawyer. Then the bizarre accusations and veiled threats would begin. And if the person answered positively, then the threats of exposure, etc. became overt.
In November, of course, you launched the big assault with your accumulated information. When I attempted to defend myself, your attacks became even more shrill and irrational. When others began to respond to your attacks with favourable information, or even facts that directly contradict your representation of me, you ignored it or did your best to twist it your way. You couldn’t be wrong after all…
In December I gave you notice to cease and desist. The attacks intensified into completely libellous charges of child rape and tantric child sex. Never mind that sources had to be misconstrued and taken out of context to make any kind of point at all, and anonymous sources wilfully misquoted as “evidence,” it matched your preconception so it must be true. I was a psychopathic alien reaction machine, and that was all there was to it.
Well, sorry, but not even close…
And the fact that you can’t even imagine how you have misjudged me is quite powerful proof of your own distance from reality. You haven’t a clue about me, and while the world is supposed to sympathize with you, you have no sense of anyone else’s pain whatsoever. Your ability to de-humanize your enemies does in fact verge on the pathological.
However, that does not mean that there is no method in your madness. All along, at the center of all the controversy, lay the unedited transcripts, the elephant in the living room.
That’s why you banned my last post to the egroups in August. I was encouraging everyone to get their hands on a copy and check it out on their own. This, as I soon realized, was the last thing you wanted to have happen.
When an innocent joke on Matrioshka ignited a firestorm of response from L’ark and their attack-bots, and led to the big attack, I knew that it was indeed true: The last thing you wanted was for anyone else to read the unedited transcripts. Why?
There are many answers but the most obvious is Fred Irland. Since he was there, his hand on the planchette or channelling directly, for every single session considered intelligible enough to be from the Cassiopaeans, then why isn’t he credited anywhere else among the voluminous and ever-growing Cassiopaean material? From reading the website, you might never know he existed. And if you read Amazing Grace, then you found a “Frank” who was something of an enigma, and one that certainly bore no resemblance at all to the real person.
And so, after you pushed me into legal action by refusing to simply take my name down from the website, I went looking for people in your background, such as Fred Irland.
Many people from your past, some quite important to your mythos, were decidedly uncomfortable with the direction the Cassiopaean cult had taken in the last few years, Fred was livid at what had been done to what was, essentially, his material. He has never given permission for his work with you to be used in any form whatsoever, as you are well aware.
“(F) The point is, you are not soliciting business. It will solicit you. But… if we are going to all be involved in this solicitation of advice from the Cassiopaeans, we should ALL profit!” (January 22, 2000 – nine months before Fred’s departure.)
So please don’t try to pretend otherwise. In this case, your past actions speak much more clearly than any words of damage control you might come up with. Fred was there, and was pivotal to the process in ways that you were not. Did Edgar Cayce’s secretary copyright his readings? If Einstein came to dinner and explained the theory of relativity to you, could you then transcribe that conversation, take Einstein’s name off of it, and then claim that the theory of relativity was your work?
That, essentially, is what you are claiming by putting your name on Fred’s words. And then to build a cult on that basis is to add insult to injury.
And yet, you claim that it is Fred and I “who are so desperately attempting to illegally steal our work,” when in fact you have been stealing his work since the beginning. Fred Irland is now asserting his copyright to the original material, which you have been using for years, even after he broke off contact and therefore could be presumed to have withdrawn any tacit permission extended by his presence.
After he left, in fact, you tried to erase him completely from the Cassiopaean website, and at no time have you ever acknowledged fully the important role Fred played in producing the material. Instead, the present perception of anyone reading your version of the transcripts is that you did everything all by yourself. If it were not for the St. Pete Times article, one might never know that Fred was involved at all.
This certainly looks like an attempt to cover up a serious job of copyright piracy to me. Yet it is somehow our fault, because never, ever, no matter what the cost, can it be your fault…
Just like it wasn’t your fault that you almost killed that man…
Please understand that I have nothing but sympathy for anyone who undergoes the violence and degradation of a sexual assault. I have spent many hours listening to men and women talk about their experiences with rape and abuse. And in all that time, I’ve never heard a story quite like yours, Laura.
The obvious fictionalisations and logical inconsistencies give the game away immediately. But to change the story once it was up on the website, to make it more sympathetic, simply wrecks any credibility you may have had. One example will suffice:
“Apparently the man had gone out to the balcony and yelled “rape” or some such nonsense, and someone heard him and called the police.” In your original version of this paragraph, the man “crawled to the balcony and called for help, ” not rape, and “someone in the parking lot heard him and called the ambulance and the police.”
Why change your story? Since this version is mostly fiction anyway, why not embellish it a little more, perhaps?
I’m sure this wasn’t your fault either. Ark must have fixed it for you when you weren’t looking…
Truly, I have no interest in arguing with you about your lies concerning this sad and almost tragic affair. You know how many different versions of this story you’ve told and who you told them to through the years. You also know what the Tallahassee Democrat had to say about it back as it happened.
But this does make me angry:
“During the past week or so, we have had to sit down with our children, show them the terrible, hurtful lies that are being written about us by these contemptible, solipsistic, malignent, (sic) and lawless people. We have had to show them that these people have no compunction about writing about the children themselves, using their names, possibly endangering them, certainly embarrassing them, and most definitely hurting them psychologically and emotionally. We have had to explain to them about people who choose conscious evil; people who are malicious, evil-minded, envious, obnoxious, and loathesome. (sic) We have had to explain to them about people who are so twisted that they derive gratification from deceiving other people and hurting other people. And we have had to explain to them that these people pose as “good and helpful and friendly” when they meet you and when you have something they want, or something they wish to destroy, whether they are being directed by some nebulous Control System, or their own internal deficiencies and general failure at life. What is more, we have had to explain it to ourselves.
“And of course, the children have asked us: Why do you even do it? Why not just walk away from the world such people inhabit? Why not just go back to “normal life,” and forget about it. Let the world do what it wants to do, let everybody just go away and leave us alone?
And frankly, as I write this, I am hard pressed to answer that question. Why, indeed?”
Why does this make me angry? Of course having no insight about me, I’m sure you haven’t a clue. Since you are the ones who shamelessly involve your children in your dramas and trot them out when you need a little sympathy or convenient witnesses, I am not surprised at this latest attempt to use your children as pawns in your strange blame game.
But remember, I met your kids, spent time in your house and so forth. I know that they are neglected, used as servants around the house instead of going to school (home schooling in what exactly?) and used as emotional support for the constant theme of the world is out to get Laura. Anyone reading the St. Pete Times article knows how you used Jason’s childhood fantasies to build a case for his reincarnation, and refused to back down on it after the Cs were proved flat out wrong.
And now, trot the children out again for sympathy because people are going to say some mean things about Mommy dearest… Never mind if they are true or not, or that you published them before anyone else had even mentioned the subject, they are bad things and you had to warn the kids that even people they liked, such as myself and Fred, were evil and bad because they questioned Mommy dearest’s motives.
Frankly, it just makes me want to puke. Such hypocrisy and self-serving narcissistic behavior is simply beyond the pale of human decency, and I am not sure which shocks me more - your sense of egoistic entitlement or your complete lack of understanding and compassion toward your children.
Why not walk away from it as they asked you to do? Or at least, try to admit your errors and fix things? That would be the STO thing to do, but then that path seems to have little attraction for the lower astral ouiji aliens who have enslaved you. There are as devoid of compassion and ethics as you are, and they are apparently only concerned with how much of your negative emotional energy they can consume. Therefore, they encourage you to just keep piling it on.
Of course, you have now arrived at a place from which it will be very hard to retreat. Just taking my name down will not solve the problem of Fred’s copyright. That will not just go away because you insist it doesn’t exist. It does, ask the lawyer that “Jack” was going to get for you.
And Ark, it is really too bad that you put your eggs all in one basket, and such a rotten one at that! I’m sure there is a Polish proverb about that…
So please, stop indulging that old STS taste for negative emotions and take some steps to correct the situation before it is really too late.
Thank you,
Vincent Bridges
vincentbridges.com
“Knowledge from which no wisdom is derived is like a treasure from which no charity is bestowed.” Mohammed